(WJBK) - A former ESPN presenter shared a moving post on social media in honor of her first Mother’s Day.
Sarah Walsh, who is married to Toronto Blue Jays pitcher Matt Buschmann, posted about their heartbreaking journey to parenthood, which included suffering a miscarriage while on live TV.
My mother bought them these onesies because she thought they were funny. For us, they're especially poignant. Finding a good egg didn't come easy for me, and I suspect there are many people out there facing the same struggle. The road down a dark path began while hosting Sportscenter on the road from Alabama. I arrived in Tuscaloosa almost three months pregnant. I wouldn't return the same way. The juxtaposition of college kids going nuts behind our set, while I was losing a baby on it, was surreal. I was scared, nobody knew I was pregnant, so I did the show while having a miscarriage. On television. My husband had to watch this unfold from more than a thousand miles away, texting me hospital options during commercial breaks. It would get worse. Two more failed pregnancies. More than once, I'd have surgery one day and be on SportsCenter the next so as not to draw attention to my situation. We then went down the IVF road of endless shots and procedures. After several rounds, we could only salvage two eggs. I refused to even use them for a long time, because I couldn't bear the idea of all hope being gone. I blew off pregnancy tests, scared to know if it worked. It had. Times two. It was exciting news, but we knew better than to celebrate. So I spent a third straight football season pregnant, strategically picking out clothes and standing at certain angles, using scripts to hide my stomach. There would be no baby announcement, no shower, we didn't buy a single thing in preparation for the babies, because I wasn't sure they'd show up. We told very few people we were pregnant, and almost no one there were two. For those that thought I was weirdly quiet about my pregnancy, now you know why. For as long as I can remember I hosted Sportscenter on Mother's Day, and the last couple years doing that have been personally brutal. An hours-long reminder of everything that had gone wrong. I wasn't on tv today, and I'm not sure when I will be again, but instead I got to hang with these two good eggs. My ONLY good eggs. And I know how lucky I really am. #twins #ivf
"I was scared, nobody knew I was pregnant, so I did the show while having a miscarriage," she wrote on her Instagram post.
She says he husband was watching, knowing what was unfolding, from thousands of miles away. She writes that he was even texting her hospital options during her commercial breaks.
Sarah then shares that, after that miscarriage, she had two more failed pregnancies. She kept quiet about her infertility struggles, and even showed up at work a day after a surgery as to not draw attention to her situation.
She and her husband eventually went down the IVF road, and eventually got pregnant with twins. She was still scared, and didn't really share her exciting news.
"I spent a third straight football season pregnant, strategically picking out clothes and standing at certain angles, using scripts to hide my stomach. There would be no baby announcement, no shower, we didn't buy a single thing in preparation for the babies, because I wasn't sure they'd show up. We told very few people we were pregnant, and almost no one there were two," she writes. "For those that thought I was weirdly quiet about my pregnancy, now you know why."
This was her first time in a while not being on TV on Mother's Day, and, even though she's not sure when she'll be back on TV, she writes that she feels lucky to hang out with "these two good eggs." She also shared a photo of her lying in a hammock with her two children.
Her son and her daughter are wearing bright blue onesies that say, "GOOD EGG."
"My ONLY good eggs," Sarah adds. "And I know how lucky I really am."
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